I think in 10, 15 years from now I'll look back and think "Wow, I didn't have a clue. Things are pretty good now and they could have been then, if only I hadn't worried so much." So I need to get real. And stop worrying about relationships, getting old, my debt. It will be taken care of. And as far as getting old, I really need to start believing that you're only as old as you let yourself feel. I look around and see these older people, in their drab boring clothing and with their drab boring hair with their drab boring conversations that consist of weddings and children and I think "Ugh, it seems like the life has been sucked out of them!" You don't need to be like that when you get older. Stay the same. Or get better. It seriously doesn't have to happen like that. But about talking only of weddings and children and topics that you are a stick-in-the-mud about, I hear that all the time - at work, and with my family. I love to hear talk about exciting things they've done or want to do or are doing! Not the mundane monotonous topics. But I have to get real and realize that this is how it is here. I will move to another place where discussions about weddings and babies are much much fewer and where people's minds are much more open.
By the by, I tend to stay away from people who are notorious for bringing up the "W and B" talk. I'm really not in a place to be hearing that so much. And trust me, I hear it a lot. I've been worried about finding a husband and settling down even before I got out! It's because these past 2 years or so I've been hearing about weddings so dang often I can't help but think "Well when will I get married?!" And then I kinda harp on that. And it is no fun. And I cannot get away from this talk, but I sure want to. I will. Someday. Someday not too far. 2 years. I can do this.