Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I gotta write about this, if only to remind myself to do something.

Don't you just hate it when you realize that there is something that you have to confront someone about? Yeahh.... There have been a few times where I thought that I should confront a certain person about an issue....and I never have. See, I have this thing where I have to fix/deal with any issues/problems/concerns that I have, especially when it deals with another person. I think it's my problem to deal with. I don't see why if I have the problem, why do I need to involve someone else in it? I'll just deal with it myself! (And I'll be better for it.)
Well see...I've been doing that. With this certain person. And it's all basically the same issue. It keeps coming up however, because they keep talking about it. Ok, wow. I think I'm going to have to tell you it or else you may not get the jist. Alright, here it is: one of my old boyfriends likes to talk about "relationships" (why I used little quoties will come to you in a bit). Without explaining too much about it (well any bit is too much) I'll just try to get you on the same page, or in the same chapter. This guy has an extremely unhealthy view on relationships, doesn't know himself well, and lacks the ability to self-reflect. I fell right in the middle of this. Ok, that sums it up. Good! moving on....
So he likes to talk about girls/sex/marriage...all in very unhealthy, lustful, insubstantial ways...that will (and has..to a few girls) hurt them pretty badly. Now I have come to terms with what is now our relationship and have determined that I will never ever ever get back together with him. So it doesn't affect me in that way. It, pretty simply, just makes me mad. I don't like to hear about someone's extremely unhealthy view on relationships when they are so gung-ho about it. I've tried to talk to him about it a few times....waste of time. It makes me ever madder when I know that this particular view messed me up...for a time much longer than it should have been. I just don't want to hear about this. All I can think about is how his view affected me. And it's still the same view, and it's still affecting other girls.
So, since this keeps coming up, I will have to ask him the favor of refraining from bringing up the subject when I'm around.

P.S. What's up with Blogger not allowing us to use the tab key in this space? Do they not want us to retain our grammar knowledge from grade school? Someone should write to them about that.
P.P.S. I just did.